Broken Glass.

Merdeka 2009

2009-09-05T01:04:00.000-07:00

Look at that very very smart guy who destroyed our lovely picture. Gonna sue that fella la. My god, dahla so brave to smile and pose with us in the picture. Anyways,. hahaha. Sze Mei, my ex neighbour with my pretty face painted sis . Waaa. Look at me weih damn patriotik

Haha, syika and I went up to the block to rondaaa, and we curi-curi managed to take a picture of us.
haha. she was like damn proud of herself cause she thinks she decorated the classroom damn nice. HAhahaha. Actually it's just "like that only la " PFfsh. HAHAAHA. Nah. jokes.
It's just really fun to hang out with her laa. She calls me cacat cause my eyes are unnsymmetrical and I call her sepet cause her eyes can hardly be seen. : D

perfect team hahaha.

2009-07-15T05:19:00.000-07:00

Hey Loves!

Just wanted to inform you guys that I've created a new blogg.

So, Stop by anytime to check it out ;)

http://heartsdown.blogspot.com/

2009-01-05T08:08:00.000-08:00

Terry-oh-sann..

2008-12-29T05:58:00.000-08:00

Holly days'

Oh. It's been two busy months of having fun and sharing moments together.

Why I stopped blogging for awhile? It's because I didnt touch the computer much. I hate wasting my fun inside while outdoors are so much more lovely- with the right company, that is.

Anyways/ I've lately been into the oldies'. Anyone heard of uptown girl?
oh oh. also. the script is a huge band right now.
what i've really been into is 'the killers' which really rock my socks :)
Yeeeaaaah, baby.

Hmm. I really miss my gay partner. Wish she was with me right now.

"Ehh chicken, forget about me already ahhh?! Chicken I miss u sooo much!"
"OHMAGODD DONKAYYYY! I wanna cry alrd! I missesss yooooooouh!"
"yeah right.. You didnt even call me, evryday also go out go out. cant even keep ur ass for one day at home.Now you say you miss me.."
"NONONOOOOOO. I miss youuuuuuuuuuu. See. I'm crying already. *Pretend to sobs*
"Hahaha. how many pails u used up laaah?"
"Pails?.."
"YEAHLAA. TO keep ur tears"

Donkey. as if I'll ever cry that much for you. haahaha. I love to listen to her voice. every single time i'm on the line with her i'll laugh fr so freaking long.
if i told you the jokes she makes, i swear everyone would love her'
AWESOMEEE womann. hahaha

Ystd I went to ou with terry-oh-san. he's going to hk. n to new zealand. and to aussie.
watched yesman. Ohh ohh. great movie. the plot was very simple and yet the whole movie made me laugh my ass off. took lots of pictures but- you know me :)

2008-11-17T03:20:00.000-08:00

Monday i went out to ou with ellis and her friends. met up with alisa again. :)
Tuesday I had school.
Wednesday i went to ou again. with my sweetie :)
Thursday I pak toh with Bridget and the skinny chicken.

Friday Patrick kor called me at 7.30 am =.= Dude, who wakes up that early? they waited for me at school until 8.30 am. Salvin, ben, patrick and cat. Lepak lepak and went mamak. kidnap them back to my house and played ps2. everyone asking 'Sandy, why all ur friends guys wan?" =.= and i mean everyone.

Saturday i went to cut my hair. it so freaking short. Oh well. And then I had family reunion. suppose to go for both of my friend's party, went for one, and it pissed me off.
Sunday I went out with my dad, the whole day at temple, me and my dad made darn lame ass jokes. I really had fun bonding with daddy. :) I love him.
Monday i went out with my mom, here and there, makan makan non stop.

2008-11-11T05:17:00.000-08:00

its funny how it's human nature to crave for things we don't have. don't you realise it? when people say they wanna be 'YOU'. Or they wanna have your 'skin colour, your smile, your hair, you're personality.

Whereas we ourselves aren't happy with our own, and isn't it depressing to keep on wishing to have something you wont, ever have?

Anyways. my point. although i'm a pessimist, i deserve to be happy with myself, right?

It sucks when people mistaken me for a malay, and yet its funny to look at their faces. they'll be scrunching up their noses and ask 'Ni se hua ren ah? ' or in another way 'ma lai ren',
Who else got it the same way? My cuzzie, Heidy.

She's exactly like me, retarded. Just yst, we were talking bout how we're gonna grow old and no one would love us cause we're a little out of our mind. :) hehe. aw. i love her so much. we're the awesome quahs.

at least i know im not the only one.
:)

anyways. on sunday i went out with vicky
n navjit with her family. watched hsm 3. it was not bad. cause i honestly did nt like hsm 1 & 2.
we took lots of pictures and crapped a lot during the movie. suddenly i'll start laughin for no reason, n they'll start laughing. some people would turn around and look at us.

There was one commercial where a fat girl was like "AKu bukan perempuan la bodoh, aku jantan lah!"

Then my friends said "OMGGGG, sandy! you're on tv weiyhh!" both of them started laughing at me. and i played along and said "That's me!' :)

I had fun.

On monday i went ou with ellis and her friends. hehe. it was alright. met up with a alisa and a few of them i;ve met before. very vry friendly people :)

well./ i've gotta go watch my eyelashes grow. buhbye lovelies.

2008-11-09T19:21:00.000-08:00

Saturday. i went to Navjit's apartment in menjalara. right outside was a swimming pool so we took gay pics. as u can see, they keep on hugging me so tightly,( i secretly think they're gay) Hahahaha. anyways. it was great. Except for the part those workers were staring at us. Lol. you know what i did? I showed them.. THA MIDDLE FINGERRRR. those assholes. probably staring at my gay partner, Hahahahaha. navjit's mom made damn good curry. Wow. i love their food. it rocks.

At 4, i went back home, quickly changed and get ready. meryl came to pick me up and we headed for ellis's barbeque party. Hanged out. And did our nails, They keep on commenting "Aiyooo Sandy, why sooooo messsy?"

Hellooo.

meryl cooked for me the chicken. it was only half cooked =.= all of our chickens sucked. and then she said 'Aiyo, we are very bad cooks' How to cook for our husband's next time? ' LOL. freaks. we shared food n they kept on feeding me. God, i wanted to vomit alrdy.

ellis had her friend over, alisha. she's soooooo pretty! haha.

then we talked and played guitar hero. meryl and i kept on competing with each other. we all love the song 'suck my kiss- by red hot chilli peppers.

and then a guy, who's meryl's friend, offered us sparkling juice, oooooohmygooodd. so nice. :)

wanted to sleepover but meryl had to go back, awww.

Anyways. i had a great time. with both the lamest people in the world :)

2008-11-07T19:33:00.000-08:00

i'm totally stuck on The killers and low millions right now, AHHHHH. its sad how they're infamous compared to the latest hits now. their voices are so freakin hot.

i'm going swimming today. and then straight to ellis's gathering. i'm gonna eat like a pig today. i dont care i dont care! :)

Well. guess i gotta go eat my refrigerator.
lol. aaaah. i ate navjit's one already. it tastes slightly sour, :( it's very old and moldy/ we broke her ceilings and peep on her neighbours. Hmmm. what else?

I'm gonna killllll her.

2008-11-07T06:06:00.001-08:00

went out with the guys today. bryan kwok's house, n played ps2, naruto. won patrick. WOHOOO. that was the best lah, they were pulling my hair n messing up my face, n yet i still won. ;)
pffsh, they suck :P

me n brenda was the only girls again. yet my mouth cant stop..talking.
So, yeah, ben ben, patrick, mun chun, redza, bryan, salvin, nick kee, chen shen, sun oon and the rest of the idiots were there lah.

went back n headed to bryan teh tarik's house. threw rocks n did lotsa stupid stuff.
chee siong said he loves me. yeay :)
okay. im gay.

byee.

2008-10-26T23:36:00.000-07:00

Are you gonna be my girl- JET


I said a-1, 2, 3
Take my hand and come with me
Because you look so fine
That I really wanna make you mine

I said, you look so fine
That I really wanna make you mine

4, 5, 6
C'mon and get your kicks
Now you don’t need the money
when u look like that, do ya hunny

Big black boots
Long brown hair
She’s so sweet
With her get-back stare

Well I could see
You home with me
But you were with another man, yeah
I know we ain't got much to say
Before I let you get away, yeah

I said, are you gonna be my girl

Well a-1, 2, 3
Take my hand and come with me
Because you look so fine
That I really wanna make you mine

I said, you look so fine
That I really wanna make you mine

4, 5, 6
C'mon and get your kicks
Now you don’t need the money
With a face like that, do ya

Big black boots
Long brown hair
She’s so sweet
With her get-back stare

Well, I could see
You home with me
But you were with another man, yeah
I know we ain't got much to say
Before I let you get away, yeah

I said, are you gonna be my girl

Oh yeah
Oh yeah
C'mon!

I could see
You home with me
But you were with another man, yeah
I know we ain't got much to say
Before I let you get away, yeah
Be my girl
Be my girl
Are you gonna be my girl?
Yeah!

2008-10-26T01:19:00.001-07:00

I'm two quarters and a heart down'
and i dont wanna forget how your voice sounds.

Yesterday i went out to OU, with bryan teh tarik and kawanku, suraj.
It was chee siong's bday, and we shared money to get him a very very very extremely nice lookin' water bottle, lol.

Chee siong invited two girls who nvr bothered to socialise. so he pointed at them and said, "Aiyoooo sandyy! you see, they wear so sexy, you don't bother to dress up" Cause I came with baggy pants, a white singlet and a jacket on top. then he pulled my jacket down purposely.
He's sooooooooooo cute laah! hahaha.

So bryan and 'I walked alone to find a present, then we headed to so many freaking shops, made lots of lame ass jokes and crapped.

Met up with suraj and we walked to burger king, sat down, blabla. laugh for no reason.

we watched 'eagle eye' and in the cinema, we were fooling around and stuff, sat between suraj and bryan. and it was FREAKING cold.
after that,we went to play pool, the rest went to bowl. played with the bowling balls. my usual one is 12.8, round it up it'll be 13. so the guys found it hard to carry (heehee, dont underestimate girls) and then we kicked each other n did lotsa stupid stuff just to entertain ourselves.

when suraj had to go back, we walked him all the way out, and I mean ALL THE way.
after tht, we continued havin fun at the mall. i practically spent the whole day there with the two monkeys. :P

went to bryan's house and dad picked me up from there, went out fr dinner and pasar malam.

UGH. came back home and felt like a zombie.

2008-10-21T19:25:00.001-07:00

I'm officially not a prefect anymore. Why? Because of the fact that the teacher is a big racist, And he only believes people his own race. Two boys twisted the story, now it all seems it's my fault. Got sacked yst, I'm resigning today. And starting a new life, again.

Depressing, isnt it? When a teacher doesn't like you, he has all rights to just make you lose your job.

Mom told me not to look at the past anymore. My dad usually doesn't side me in all of these problems. He would usually say it was my mistake. but yst was different, he defended me, he went to see teacher, and I was really shocked, because I always thought my dad would have different opinions with mine.

Of course, there are many ppl who knows who's in the wrong,
But I just wish sooner or later they would get a taste of their own medicine.

At school, it was pretty okay, Ridzuan (molester =.= ) came to pay a visit.
Talked for awhile lah, cause his friends all hanging out with him.
I have lost all respect for him after what he did to me. Grrrhh. I'm gonna kick his butt.
Anyways, it was pretty fun as well, sat with Suraj, Kavi, Amanda.
Hang out.
Suraj would always stare at us when we start laughing for no reason, not only once, or twice, but we were gila gila after every five seconds.
And then he'll start laughing after looking at our faces.
What's soo funnayy? :/

Anyways. 'I gotta go school. Wish me luck for my new day,

2008-10-20T08:37:00.000-07:00

Okay, I know since my exams are coming. I'm not suppose to be blogging.
But still. I would just like to say something that happened to me today.

It was going great as usual. As they said, with the right company, you can make any dull trip of yours to be awesome! So, my class is the best weiyh.

Anyways. During perhimpunan, I had to read ikrar, yesh, And as some of them know, I laugh every single time teacher ask me a question in class. It;s not that I intended to, i just do it.

So, when the bell rang, students came down, and soon it was time.
I read. Suddenly, I accidentally pronounce one or two words wrongly, so I got nervous and started giggling for one second. I manage to cover it back, obviously, and I thought to myself i did pretty well.

Later on, my discipline teacher came to me,saying he wasn't happy on my performance. I was like, Wthell man, he started shouting at me and I was seriously stunned.

After he left, my tears rolled down like, automatically, Khae shen and zhi yeung were beside me, asking if I was okay or not. god, I felt like an idiot, then, vanessa came and asked what happened, and asked me to go to toilet to wash up. I was like "Dun wannnn la...If i go, then more people would know I was sobbering.
Right after that, Vicky came and asked me to go to the walkway. asking me to tahan and hold it in, but i couldn;t. It was seriously such a shock to me cause the teacher was being too much. Saying he want to sack me right away. But he seriously was being too much, and called out my other friends who he claimed, made me laugh.

I am seriously not happy with this because he did not have to bring other people in this situation i'm in. He did not a least bit made sense as you can;t fire someone just because you were in a bad mood earlier. YES, he was in a bad mood. So he was practically letting it out on us. =.= effed up man.

Then Saresh and Ala came, apologising and all. comforting.
When bell rang, we walked back to the canteen. Lots of my friends grouped up to hug me but Navjit and Kavi was wiping the tears off my face, Amanda was there trying to cheer me up. chee siong came and tried to help. A whole bloody bunch of ppl came and comforted me but I couldn't remember who was there cause I could only see the monkey and dugong's face, and i burst into laughter, which was very very off timing.

Ris came later on and gave me a hug, Baldeep, Suraj and a few more of them came.
Ruth was there too.
some of them said i wasn't human because I started laughing again after awhile, and then i felt much better to know that my friends actually cared for me. : )

That was really sweet lah. Unexpected,and touching.

2008-10-14T22:20:00.000-07:00

Speed Of Sound - Coldplay

How long before I get in?
Before it starts, before I begin?
How long before you decide?
Before I know what it feels like?
Where To, where do I go?
If you never try, then you'll never know.
How long do I have to climb,
Up on the side of this mountain of mine?

Look up, I look up at night,
Planets are moving at the speed of light.
Climb up, up in the trees,
every chance that you get,
is a chance you seize.
How long am I gonna stand,
with my head stuck under the sand?
I'll start before I can stop,
before I see things the right way up.

All that noise, and all that sound,
All those places I got found.
And birds go flying at the speed of sound,
to show you how it all began.
Birds came flying from the underground,
if you could see it then you'd understand?

2008-10-14T10:05:00.000-07:00

Me and Kenneth. I was teased by him a lot. Look at me, HAHAHHAHA, I look so cina apek with my old lala hairstyle.

Me and Jaclyn, She's such a nice person. :)

Terry-oh-san and I. Okay, I seriously need to stop fooling around, there's another picture of me doing something stupid. But it's too embarrassing for me to post it up. Look at terry, he looks so POSERR!

Ohmygod. Heheh. Having fun with old people. I look so short compared to Kenneth. Basketball player weiyh. Oh oh, I look so retarded in this pic,

My silly kor kor loves me so much. Tsk tsk. Who wouldn't?
Sorry for the bad quality though, my camera went crazy, so I took this picture using my phone and transferred it to the comp,

OMG, I look so cute in this picture. I'm such a cute ass. :)

Okay, I've never actually camwhored alone before. I found it kinda freaky,
When I was twelve, I was a lala-machine,
And then I slowly evolved to this cute little alien.
:)

So here's my first shot,
AAAAAAAAHHH! SO LALA. omg, I'm never gonna try taking a picture of myself againnnnnnnnn! T_T Someone, please help me.

Okay la, actually I think it's lala, but kinda cute laaaa, Hahahahhaa, I think I have this lala-blood.

Run

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anyway from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
I just want to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

2008-10-13T21:48:00.000-07:00

Saturday, After science class,
Me, guan shen, bryan, havines and vean tat
Went to starplus, and played badminton.

After that, Guan shen and bryan walked me home as for the rest went back home a bit later.
This is such a good way to get a sun tan, especially when you're like me, my skin burns ten time faster than a normal human,

Anyways, after that, they dropped me off and I went to bryan teh's house,
Suraj, and nikesh was there already, bullshitted me so many times. lol.

Walked to max valu and met up with chee siong, ate in 'mmm, express' or somethin' like that, They took alot of pictures of me eating, which was very extremely disturbing.
Some more dare to ask me to chill'

After that, I went to rachel maryanne's birthday party with Sam and yvonne.
Shared a present. Met up with everyone. And nikesh was there, again. hahaha.

Brandon brought vodka. btw, is it allowed? I took a cup lah, but we mixed it with orange juice. Talked, and all. went back home.

And died on the bed.

2008-10-09T08:47:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking, while I was sorting pictures of us,' I just can't help but to remember those sweet memories we had,
Everything now, if you reversed the number of days that passed, I could remember the day where we took embarrassing video clips and posted it on youtube.

Made lot's of lame ass jokes that made me cry of laughter.
And the part where we took ugly pictures that made me laugh even harder.

I can't stop reminiscing, but now, whatever that is left, is gone.
And I went through a new start.

I made new friends, and I've learn to be stronger,
I learn not to depend on anyone else,
And be independent.

So, it doesn't really matter what happened between us, just the funny moments we shared, those sweet moments,

And moving on.

I'm currently very happy with my life, no more problems, having lots of fun, making lots of noises and being myself.

Yst, in cmputer lab' the guys were playin dota and they named their group 'Sandy power'
Hahahaha, they sat bside me and they kept on making stupid comments and remarks.
Aiyo, kena teased like hell,

and then and then, school has been darn awesome fr me,
Bryan and Guan shen invited me to play badminton this saturday, they said they'll teach me, I DONT wannnnnt! If i go, I just wanna watch la wei.
and andd, guan shen suggested tht he'll walk with me back, I was like
'YOU BETTER. If not I wont go.'
Did you know there's so many kidnapping cases out there? Ohmagood.

Well. Suraj's trainin' me football tmr, man, I have to wake up early, Great.
there's really no reason to it, I guess I just wanted to try a new sport too. : )

Err. Navjit, Kavi the monkay' and amanda has been real sweethearts. Just that day during pj Kavi tried to peep at amanda pee-ing,
While we splashed water at her in the cubicle.

Then we played at the Lp, I didn't run cuz' the field was muddy.
And then I pulled Kavi's shoe and danced around like a monkey, Did lotsa silly acts, kicked her shoe, Darshaini was darn good at kicking her shoe weiyh, it came flying in all directions. hahaha, Navjit was busy talking about 'AHEM to amanda, Poor amanda laaah, pity her ears. hahahahaha.

In moral class, the teacher had to put me on the front row and separated me with navjit, God, that didn't work, I talked to the guys behind' . I really, really really, need to learn my lesson laaaaaah, I guess I got influenced by this dugong. NAVJITTT!
The teacher wanted to give an example, saying I'm the wife, and bryan's the husband, but then the guys were like 'WEIYyhh, mane bolehh? Sandy harus jadi Bapa laaah weii!"
God, Dahlah i kena embarrassed so much already,
Then teacher asked me why I smile so much, even when he threatened me he'd give me e-discipline. hahahaha. I bet he thought I was cute. secretly. hahahaha.

Lot's of things happened lah during the past three days.
I gotta go. football trainin' tmr. or else I'd be lying on the grass like a dead cow.

Nights' I'm out.

2008-10-07T08:10:00.000-07:00

My freaking funny Friends.

My freaking funny Family.

2008-10-04T10:37:00.000-07:00

Kokokaina- I Wish I'd Never

Watching phantom planes go by
Sinking into the darkness of the night
The lady in the clouds is lyin' down
beside Chopin while he plays her the words of heaven

Red light beaming just a little over the green familiar hill
I still don't know how to control how i think, or speak, or feel

so...

I wish i'd never fallen in love...
so deeply
I wish i'd never knew that love...
actually exists

I got your letter today
told me that you're back in therapy
and i don't know why but it still concerned me

But they tell me what's the point of hurting
over something, that was nothing at all
I never used to be so gullible and vulnerable
but i guess with love nothing's impossible

so...

I wish i'd never fallen in love...
so deeply
I wish i'd never knew that love...
actually exists

You said that i was good for you but you pushed me aside
Now tell me does that seem right?
I've fallen for a pessimist
but God help me i tried
to get you out of it

so...

I wish i'd never fallen in love...
so deeply
I wish i'd never knew that love...
actually exists...

but i do now...
i do now...

2008-10-04T09:57:00.000-07:00

I went to the club today, went gym, met up with Joshua, again, he asked me why I didn't text him to tell him I'm coming, he baked cookies and wasn't sure to bring it or not. (Fr ME!) Hahhaha, it was pretty sweet of him lah, cause hardly any friend of mine baked for me stuff. :/

Hahahaha, Nah, I'm not hinting!

So we talked, and I met a few of my other friends laah, Adrian, Kenny,
And I resumed my exercisin'.

My dad and I also went to have a tea break' and ate at some mamak store nearby, WOW, the food is darnnnn good mannn. Daddy only ate 4/10 of the naan' cheese, The rest I MAKAN habis habis. Hahaha.

***

It was Friday and I went to Metro Prima with Navjit, Nisha, Arshanaa and Vicky.

I came with Vicky, dad dropped us on the opposite building, walked
And met up with the rest at starbucks, navjit bought us tickets to watch Mamma Mia,
This is my second time watchin' it. GREAT.

ahah. I enjoyed it though, one of my favourite songs are 'Super Troupers' I have no idea why,
Maybe it's cause I fell in love with one of the lines; 'Cause somewhere In the crowd there's you.'

I also LOVE Dancing Queen and Honey honey.

We were stalking some teenagers who sat on the couple row, and the guy was playin' with her face and all, OHMYGOSH, lol. Nisha and all were telling us what he's doing to the girl, And we all got excited when He kissed her, Turns out he only kiss her arm. Lol.

Navjit , Nisha and Arshanaa went to the toilet halfway through the movie, they invited me (Man, I should've went) but I wanted to watch the movie! ;)

They embarrass navjit weiyh. HAHAHHAHAHHA.
We ate lunch there, in the food court laah, since we couldn't decide where to eat. Secret recipe's the usual place I eat but it seems they were quite reluctant.

We fooled around a lot laaah, but I guess a little part of me wasn't feeling very well so I did not laugh as much.

At night Sam and I went to the club. I pestered her because I wanted to go gym badly.
And so, we went, and bumped into Jarrel and Joshua, sat down and had a drink with them,
It's been a long time since we've met so, It was really nice getting to know them more.

Hahaha,

I'll upload the pictures later.

2008-10-02T07:11:00.000-07:00

Ellis's raya

So it's simple, Ellis had her raya celeb, and invited us over last minute. We did lame stuff again . =.= I tried my best to not embarrass myself again, but nothing ever seems to be just NORMAL for these monkays.

See see, Ellis wanted me to take a lovely picture of her in a slide at the park, She was posing so nicely.
And then, out of no where, a pair of hands came and wanted to strangle ellis. Wth. Hahahah.

We were racing, mine was a 2D rabbit while I Meryl has a dragon and Ellis was riding some weird animal that I did not find important to store into my mind.

Yeah, we were racing, HAHAHHAA, Meryl was singing the theme as we *Raced* And I collapsed into laughters after a second.

Seriously, we look like oversized kids.

Waaa. Waa. See my face, it radiates,haha. one of the only pictures where my face actually look's good in. Ellis, as usual, gorgeous babe. I never editted any pictures here so this is my natural beauty glowing. AAAAH. What's gotten into me. x)

Guess what we were doing? Hahahahaha. Seriously, we really did not have anything better to do,

Elehh, Meryl look's so fake, she just wants to look pretty, see, I so nicely wanted to kiss the screen but she didn't wanna kiss me. :(

Our brilliant, lala pose. Mine's obviously the best! See seen, my eye so big big, my mouth so cute cute. AAAHHH! I cannot resist my cuteness. :)
Omg, I'm sorry, perasan-ness taking over. Btw, I'm the best when it comes to lala poses.
Mwah.

Me and my little miss sunshine.
Amy and Sandy. No, I did not wear any make up.

AAAH. End of camwhoring. those two idiots laah, like to take pictures so much.
LOL

Bestfriends and gay partners.
Cheers.

2008-09-30T01:39:00.000-07:00

I totally forgot to take pictures. And blogging wouldn't be fun without pictures.
There's nothing I can do, really.

Today I went out with Meryl.
To Max Valu babyyy.
And we ate in secret recipe. Darn full, but we're greedy. Bought lot's of stuff to eat after that, sushi, apple juice, and sweets, etc.

We went to the playground and practically spent our whole afternoon there.
Hahaha, meryl bought herself another set of sushi, OOOOhmYGOD. so darn delicious weiyh.

Then we talked laa, she insisted that we're on a date. :P
So yeah, it was fun. I got to spend a day with her alone.

Anyways, here are the pictures on Kavi's bday.

2008-09-29T02:26:00.000-07:00

It was Nikesh birthday yesterday,
invited, I wen't there with Shahs, Sam and Yvonne to OU.
I walked with Shahs to Waffle world, and met up with Jega and Ashwin.
Talked and all, and ate of course. Maaann, It was good.

Shahs was really quiet laah, I didn't know what was running through her head.
Jega was so annoying, he kept on teasing me.

We met up with the rest in TGV, Nikesh shaved his head.
And walked to GSC, Suraj and I wanted to get somethin' for Kavi sinced it was her birthday.
So suraj was like "Let's get her a bunch of banana's!"

While I was talking to Tim, and Wei han, a few of us accidentally got lost and walked endlessly. So we went to burger king instead.

They're a bunch of jokers la. Call me lambat seminit' and all. Actually, it's kinda true cuz' I always take a minute to think before I reply them.

since sam's gang kept pulling her away, I went to socialise more. Thanks to jega mann, he accompanied me when I was feelin' a little upset.

So we bought tickets to watch Mamma Mia. It was really darn funny lah, I kept on laughing my head off. But some of them didn't enjoy the movie at all.

After the movie, The girls wen't to mph and lot's of people were missing so a group of seven of us went to the batting cages.

Syaiful paid fr me, I offered to pay him back but he said 'I don't take money from girls'
Yeah, all guys use that as an excuse.

It was fun to get to know more new people, especially when they're all darn funny lah.
They even thought of getting Nikesh a bra' for his present.
And we actually attempt to find a loungerie shop.

At 7, I went to eat with my parents, hawker foodstalls near pasar malam.
And at eight, I wen't to Kavi's house for her party.
She LOVED the gift me and Suraj bought. :D
And nisha was there.
OOOOoooh, she was sooo dead gorgeous.
But kavi's lil' sis kept on praising me, saying I look so darn gorgeous and all. Wei, i'm not a model okaay. Cheh' Waaaah.

Hahaha. Nisha was very comfortable with us and we camwhored,
Nisha said ' LEt's do american next stop model post! Faster fasteeeerrr'
I said "HAAAAH?! Howwww?"
(Everyone was already posing. I kept on running away but the pulled me back in)
Then we took pictures of our sexy asses' and did some hardcore EMO pose, Which looks like drug addicts weiyh.

Btw, nisha was sooo gorgeous. But I'm not gay okay, even If I sound like it.
Navjit was so mad about this guy, omg, Ask her to shut up also cannot.

Overall It Was hella fun lah,
:)

2008-09-27T03:52:00.000-07:00

Mooncake Festival. Sunday

Mooncake Fest. Saturday.

2008-09-26T23:10:00.001-07:00

Yesterday was Friday,
and I haven't been updating a least bit.
So here it goes.

Woke up at 7.20 am,
Went for olahraga and hanged out with the boys, plus Brenda of course,
It's pretty silly how there aren't any other girls.
Wen't out to cc, I just watched, cause Imma' good girl. :)

They bullied me the whole way maaan', kena teased like anything.

and then we walked back to school. Got lectured by Shavin, saying Cc is a very bad place and I cannot go there cause i'll get influenced. Lol, what a joke.
and I went back home, sunburnt.

during school period, we practically didn't study at all.
Had sportcheck, and we fooled around doing shit, Navjit pulled my skirt up, and then I grabbed her leg and I sat on her and pinched her, MUAHAHAHHAHA. But she tickled me, that was my weakness, so I lost anyways. Dahlah Kavi was on her side so they both killed me.

After recess, I hang out with Darshaini mostly, DARN FUNNY weiyh. Especially in kh class I couldn;t stop laughing my head off.

It was raining but we went down for jaga padang anyways.
Suddenly Bryan came to us, he was soaking wet, and then we were like, LOL, what the hell happen to him aaaah.

But then Shahsfiny kena, and as I was talking to my friend, not realising anything, SOMEBODY splashed my face with water, so I screamt and stepped back,
And then Shahs poured water on my back, And I was left there sulking,
Vicky was happily aiming her water at me and
So, I took my water bottle and splashed Suraaaaaj!
Okay, that was a big mistake, He actually poured water on me many many times after that.

I had to borrow other people's water to get back at him.

Later on, Navjit was like "Awwww, Sandy I had so much fun!" we hugged. And then when I finally thought that was over, someone poured water on us and then some boys were like , "Sandy can I have a hug can I have a hug?"
Mocking me, pffsh.

It was darn funny lah, eventhough my bag got wet,
. Bt since it was the last day of school, Close one eye lah. :)

Hahahahaha. that's it.
I'm out.

2008-09-19T23:01:00.000-07:00

Paramore- Hallelujah

Somehow everything's gonna fall right into place
If we only had a way to make it all fall
Fall faster everyday
If only time flew like a dove
We gotta make it fly faster than I'm falling in love

2008-09-13T23:41:00.000-07:00

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry your heart out

2008-09-11T03:34:00.000-07:00

I just want to see you
When youre all alone
I just want to catch you if I can
I just want to be there
When the morning light explodes
On your face it radiates
I cant escape
I love you till the end.

2008-09-10T19:59:00.000-07:00

I love you Shahs, don't feel so friendless okay, even though we all know, the hardest part is letting go.

Don't feel friendless, just laugh along with us, we're all mad cows. :)
Muaks.

Yest, she was my running partner. We jogged along the field for eight rounds, but stopped a few times, and lied on the grass. Oh, note to self: never lie on the school field. The grass is damn itchy weiyh.
I scratch myself until my skin came off. Hahahahhaa.

We were so syuk sendiri, laughing so loud in class, ahahaha
"Where is my..boobs ?!" the expression on our face; Priceless.

"Call the police weiyh, make report!" Hahahahaha.
Darn funny la wei.

btw, the point is, I love you hun, don't be sad kay?

2008-09-07T18:57:00.000-07:00

To ting ting ting ting ting!
Eleh,so perasan. you think you very special meh? Hahahahha. yeah laa, true also ma.
Eeee, I still think you're gay because u talk and u walk very gay ma.
Hahah. :)

I'm glad you're happy eh, cheer up skinny chickenn!
Eat more, you're too skinny and weak,
I think if I sit on you, you'll break! Hahahaha.

Mwax. :)

2008-09-07T10:40:00.001-07:00

I have nothing to say.

Let's walk away, again and again and again, shall we?

What is this bloody feeling that makes it so hard for me.

And where am I heading to? everyday it gets worse.
What am I doing? I've practically been running all along.

Oh god, I swear I'm going mad.

2008-09-05T03:37:00.000-07:00

There are some people who never respected me, and it feels very insulting, especially when I never do anything at all,
People would blame everything on me, and sometimes, I'd question myself why do I keep on forgiving inconsiderate people.

Be it the old times, all I wanted to do was to end my misery.
and there was some part of me that planted hatred,
I can't help it, we're all humans. And even if I told myself to move on, there was still some part of me that kept me behind.

I never questioned myself again, after losing grip. I just went with the flow.
And I told myself never to look back again. Never to miss those bloody moments.
I said that.. but did I ever?

No, I still miss laughing, joking around, with those others.
I still miss the times when we went to the mamak stores nearby, had lunch, and the most important thing,- we talked.

I missed the times we walked to school, be late, and then canceled meetings just for our sake.
I miss those times we giggled and acted retarded, syuk-sendiri, and we'd be laughing in the end.
Yeah, those times were the times I never felt insecure, and alone.

2008-09-04T08:21:00.000-07:00

I ws beggining to talk like an indian in the library, and we were actually singing the telletubies song. Breaking down into laughters and then we teased each other until kau kau'

We didn't study, we ended up acting retarded and Navjit sang wrong lyrics to the telletubies sng.
It made Kavi mad. AHAHHAAHAHA.

When we tease Navjit abt her teeth, we asked her hw can she brush her teeth,
What kind of toothbrush she use/
Hw much did she pay for the special toothbrush.
And then we asked her hw many times she brush her teeth, she said "One year one time, only in Deepavali festival, "

When Navjit calls Kavi fatty. She'll reply " Why, you jealous because I'm fat izzit? Too bad lah, you can never be like me" Then she gave her that 'sombong look of hers.
Gosh, I found that sentence so freaking cute!

While Shahs asked Vicky and I to teman her to duty at tangga 7, there was a guy figure walking pass by, and that person hit my ass. At first I was damn shock lah, like, helloooo?
but then it was.. Aaron! :) my daddddyy!

He thought me hw to get buns of steel. Haha. It was a really retarded word because it sounds very very very retarded,

Then again, I'm really use to the whole butt-hitting thing, because my friends are real molesters.

2008-09-03T05:26:00.000-07:00

I was sitting in pokok cemerlang, as usual, we were talking, came to the topic abt trust,
we were hardly serious, so it was pretty weird for all of us.
To me, I've always avoided talking abt serious matters because it'll all come back to me again.

And thn, Navjit and I sat alone at the seats near the padang,
wait, we weren't dating okaaay, I wanted to talk to her, one on one, and then the rest came and joined us.

I screamed a lot, and did my indian accent i learn from mixing too much with them'
I said " Vat do you vant to eat?' as I showed them my drawing of fruits.
"Do you-h vant to eat apples? or oranges?"
Kavisha replied , "No-noh, I don't eat pa-perh fruits"
And then we joked around, pretty lame, but trust me, it gets lamer.

Sometimes we laugh for no reason, but that what makes us special. :)

And then Shavin was like "Ohmygod Sandy." I turned around and a bunch of guys were laughing at us.

My day was pretty simple, I pushed Navjit's bottle when she ws drinking, and the water came down splashing on her shirt, she took revenge on us, and Kavi and Nav started molesting me, ugh. I was helpless because I didn't realise they were planning some diabolical plan.

2008-09-02T05:48:00.000-07:00

Ohmygod. I was looking through Priya's profile when I came across this gay vid from the swimming party.

Well, guess who said "My underwear is wet agaaaaaain"? Hahahaha. so embarrassing.

2008-09-02T05:17:00.000-07:00

I really need to change my perception of life.

Yeah, it's pretty sad hw things worked out differently.

But still, we all have to move on,

I feel so angry, so depressed at myself.

I remember when Hira's mom came to me and said

"If you don't get in the KL league next year, if i was yr father, I'd be very dissapointed in you"

And I got really upset at that statement.

What if I don't get in?

I even made a promise to my dad I'd work hard bt all I did was stop bowling, just to go fr surgery.

God, I remember two years ago I was state champion for KL.

Being in school magazines, yr own page, "A star is born" -was my title.

And yet now, I'm dragged low,

there were many good players my age. And in the "below 18" category I made it into top four this year.

*sigh. Effed up man.

2008-08-30T10:21:00.000-07:00

Just got a few inspiration.

2008-08-30T08:04:00.000-07:00

I wish I could tell you.
But I'm just too afraid.

2008-08-29T07:53:00.001-07:00

Navjit and I were playing at the computer lab, so embarrassing, at one part, I held her face and we pretended to kiss and then the teacher caught us, And we were like,.. Oh shit,
I don't knw why we do stupid things,

I gave her my feet and asked her to massage, istead, she did something very horrid..
FREAK! Tsk tsk.

My school celebrated Merdeka today, and I scream my head off while I slapped my friends with the flag, how disrespectful, I knw, But someone like me dn't really care.

Ris and I were in class, and we talked and talked, funny how she calls me an idiot every five minutes. She's such a dear, only at times. :P Kekeke.

After recess I lost all my energy from jumping around and laughing too hard until my tears came out, and I got really sleepy and stopped socializing. Hahaha,

bt when there's Navjit, there's always fun. :P Kekeke. I love her so much! And did I mention I'm nt gay? :P

TiN@ N@vJiT says:
hey my gay partner

Haha. Silly jokes.

2008-08-28T05:41:00.000-07:00

Today in the library, we were sitting in a big group, as usual, bt this time, Navjit was acting too gay, like, she kept on tickling me and then when the librarian came and told us to keep our mouth shut, she got so shock at the fact Navjit hands were on my waist, and she was like "OMG, lesbo's"

LOL. Then the second time she came, navjit was pinning my hair for me, and then she really thought we were gay, and she kept on saying "it's okay if you girls are lesbians, just please try to be quiet, I am very open about it." And I was like, wtheck.

Jeez man, and then when the librarian went off I scolded Navjit, "OMGODDD, you see laaahh, now everyone thinks we're gaaaaay!"

LOL. well, other than that, we laughed till my stomach hurts. and science class was a total boredom. Freak man, I really don't like my science teacher, keep on calling out my name "Sandyyyyy, Sanddyy, sandyyy" "Sandy, don't gossip,"

Urgh.

2008-08-27T05:56:00.001-07:00

Kelly Clarkson - Don't Waste Your Time

It seems you can't hear me
When I open my mouth you never listen
You say stay, but what does that mean
Do you think I honestly want to be reminded forever

Don't waste your time trying to fix
What I want to erase
What I need to forget
Don't waste your time on me my friend
Friend, what does that even mean
I don't want your hand
You'll only pull me down
So save your breath
Don't waste your song
On me, on me
Don't waste your time

It's not easy not answering
Every time I want to talk to you
But I can't
If you only knew the hell I put myself through
Replaying memories in my head of you and I
Every night

2008-08-27T05:18:00.000-07:00

Navjit, I just want you to know, without you, I don't know what I'll I do. And that, thank you so much. Remember when we took the chalk and scribbled "Navjit love sandy" all over blok D? Oh, it was darn funny. God, i think everyone will think we're gay!
oooohhh, today was darn funny, all because of you. I love you so much!

I can't believe I found someone like you. So different than anyone else.
Okay, I'm not gay people, I just sound gay,

Vicky said I'm crazy that's why they all laugh much more often now. Is that a compliment? Lol!

Skinny chicken,
I'm glad you're happy. :)
Smile, smile, and then when you're crazy, you'll make me happy too! :)
Eeee, "Morning?"
sounds gay, :D like you!
For me, i tried my best to stay happy today.
Thanks so much, dearie.
and btw, about your problem, everyone goes through that, whether you want to or not. I got over my problems, try to fix yours kayh? Cause honestly, no one can help you, we all can listen, understand you, but, you are the one who has to go through the pain. So, be strong.

I made a lot of mistakes, just so you know, so don't worry to let go sometimes.
<3

2008-08-26T10:10:00.001-07:00

To my skinny chicken":
Eyyy, I wanna call you skinny chicken cannot meh? Takkanlah You want me to call you old woman, kekeke. or fatty? You're not fat laah! You so gila skinny.

Hahahaha. The line you said "take time to let bad things shoo off...while happiness rush in."
reminds me of lilian too!! HAHAHAHAHA.

Ting ting, honestly right, I don't know what's going on with your life, that's why I don't think I can help.
But for now, just feel better kayh? There will be sunshine after the rain, just remember to smile! like you taught me to, I feel better when I think of you. :)

Don't be sad, kayh? :)

And Sorry I just had to reply cause I don't feel sleepy :)

2008-08-26T04:38:00.000-07:00

Today I've just found out Sangitaa shifted school. Without telling anyone.

So everyone was damn shock, and her bestfriend cried. I hope they will be okay. Because I went through this before.

It's kinda upsetting lah, eventhough I didn't know Sangitaa that well, she was still a friend to me.
We could have planned a farewell party.

To Navjit:
Dear, don't cry, we've all been through this.
I'm sorry I yelled at you in school, yeah, we do that all the time, but this time, you're right.
She was stubborn. And I tried to help sort things out, I just didn't wanna be on anyone's side. Thanks for listening to my advice, smile, you still have me.

To Ting Ting: Hmmm. Why your blog post so emo wan? Aiyoo. :( you catching the emo* sickness already. :(
You okay or not? Don't be so sad laaah. Bad feng shui you knoww. After nobody wanna come near you. Kekeke, skinny chicken. :D
Don't be sad kayh? I'm here, I'm your fatty dog! :D

Byeee.

2008-08-25T20:07:00.000-07:00

To Ting Ting: YEEAAAH, you are always childish! :) I love yoouuuu laaaah! Gay crazy chickenn'!
And I'll try to smile, yeahh, must shoo all those bad energy, HAHAHA.
Bad feng shui. :D

2008-08-25T19:25:00.000-07:00

Maybe- Kelly Clarkson


I'm strong, but I break
I'm stubborn, and I make plenty of mistakes
Yeah I'm hard, and life with me is never easy
To figure out, to love, I'm jaded but oh so lovely
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me, maybe, maybe

Someday when we're at the same place
When we're on the same road
When it's okay to hold my hand without feeling lost
Without all the excuses
When it's just because
You love me, you let me, you need me, then maybe, maybe

All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me, maybe, maybe

I'm confusing as hell
Yeah I'm north and south
And I'll probably never have it all figured out
but what I know is I wasn't meant to walk this world without you
And I promise I'll try
Yeah I'm gonna try to give you every little part of me
Every single detail you missed with your eyes
Then maybe, maybe, yeah maybe, yeah maybe,
maybe, yeah maybe, yeah maybe

One day, we'll meet again and you'll need me, you'll see me completely
Every little thing, oh yeah maybe, you'll need me, you'll love me, you'll love me then

I don't want to be tough
And I don't wanna be proud
I don't need to be fixed and I certainly don't need to be found
I'm not lost, I need to be loved, I just need to be loved
I just want to be loved by you
And I won't stop cause I believe that maybe yeah maybe

Maybe yeah maybe
Maybe, maybe
I should know better than to touch the fire twice
but I'm thinking maybe, yeah, maybe you might,
Maybe, love maybe

2008-08-24T06:58:00.000-07:00

Laksh - issues and tissues { Blank } says:
nice pic(:
Laksh - issues and tissues { Blank } says:
you guys look like a colgte ad
Laksh - issues and tissues { Blank } says:
colgate*

2008-08-24T03:50:00.000-07:00

Went to the orphanage, and old folks home centre. It was kinda depressing to see those people suffering. But overall, it gave me and oppurtunity to be glad I did not go through life like them.

When we first stepped into the shelter we were like "OMG. " then Navjit was acting like a princess, saying "SO DIRTY! EWW."

>:(

It was fun. And we chitchat and laughed. As usual, it started raining.
Our feet were dirty. My friends didn't like my hair style. They said I look like a lala. But oh well, :) Retards are meant to be lalas.

My friends were saying
"Eleh, Sandy just wanna show herself doing work only."

Then all of them did the same thing.

HAHAHAHAHAH!

2008-08-23T21:06:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was Leo orientation,
It was so darn early and I forgot to take my breakfast.
My stomach was grumbling and it wasn't happy. :(
I made a few new friends. And it was nice to see Bridget again.
Sat on the bus with Tingting and Bridget., both of them are bestfriends.

After that, we went back home, changed,
And went out to Max Valu.

It was darn fun, we talked and talked, and knew more about each other.
Plus, Ting Ting kept on telling us not to be 'childish' but then she was acting so gay herself. :P

It was raining, so I couldn't go for a jog, we wen't Starbucks, shared a chocolate ice blended and headed to 'Big apple'.

I love you guys! :)

2008-08-23T04:44:00.000-07:00

Busy. Busy. Busy.
I'll update soon.

But before that
I would like to say,
I don't want to go against anyone.
Please, don't you hate me for no reason.

I don't hate you for being so cruel.
I don't blame you for being you.
But please understand, if it's time you need, I've already given you enough.

2008-08-22T08:24:00.000-07:00

I went out to OU. And I spent the whole day with Terry, Kenneth and Jaclyn
And Sam. Hehehe.

We watched Wall-E and it was better than we all expected.
I was searching for a manga to get some inspiration from, since I'm working on my own,

I'm too tired to elaborate.

Pictures corrupted.

2008-08-21T06:06:00.000-07:00

Ohmygod, Man, I seriously cried last time at the saloon when I was halfway cutting my boycut hair, Daymn, the saloonist panicked and handed me a tissue,
I could actually feel the breeze on my neck, For my very first time in ten years,

I really regretted cutting my hair, Ugh, changes changes changes.
Sandra's family said we look kinda alike, cause we both look like blackies'
Helllooo? It's called being tanned. Serve me right for running around the padang in the morning, my burnt skin will never be fair. :(

Oh god, bangs. :(
Bahaha. Sandra, you're so gay. :D'

We went to Desa Park City, Aka, MAX VALU MAX VALU MAX VALU! :D
It's gonna turn into my second home.

2008-08-20T19:02:00.000-07:00

Me and my bowling strikes. :D

Well, this was taken somewhere around March.
And I guess I kinda look a bit gay in this vid, but well, those who don't believe I bowl, here's the proof.

:) ps. I'm the one in white, and with the Milo logo, Okay, i do look retarded, but it doesn't matter! :)

2008-08-20T03:33:00.000-07:00

Me and Bridget went to Max Valu, as for me, it's my third time this week. ;)
We had lunch, and headed to the art shop.

Bridget got so crazy over some do-it-yourself frames that costs RM10,
Painted it at Coffee Bean, and left stains on the table.
Ohmygosh, Thank god the workers there didn't kill us, I knew it was a bad idea.

It was kinda fun! I painted the bunny, she did the frame, And we named the bunny "Bunbun!"

TADAAA!

Later then, we went to the park, while it was drizzling,we climbed and laugh, and had lots of fun.
We kept on saying we were such dorks and immature.

We played and hang out.
And it was great cause she's such an open person.
I had a real great time!

We laughed so much painting the retarded bunny.
And fooling around.

It's fun to get to know her more, she's really different than anyone else! And I'm glad to know her.

2008-08-19T22:52:00.000-07:00

Confused state. :(

2008-08-19T07:07:00.000-07:00

A special someone told me that it's okay to let go.
And that it's okay to hang onto your friends,
just not too much.
Don't depend on them too much,
Don't trust them too much.
Don't love them too much,
Cause one day, we'll all have to let go.

And throughout what has happened, I've already learn to be strong.
I just want you to know, that no one can ever replace you, YOU, you were the shining star that made me so glad to have ever knew you in the first place.
Joey, this is coming from the heart.

This is for you, this is for everything you have done from me,,
Even if I don't see you, dont hang out with you anymore,
there's always space for you in my heart.

It doesn't matter who else is involved in my life, I am so sorry for what I have done, for making this huge gap between us, for ever saying those hurtful words.
Deep down, I still love you, it's okay if you're ready to let go now,
Because there's a mark you left here, and I will always love you for who you are.

No, even if we don't smile at each other when we walk pass by, I won't forget the times we smiled and laughed and cared and acted silly! not caring about anyone else.
That's all I want, and need to say.

ily.

2008-08-18T03:27:00.001-07:00

Today was real exhausting.

But it was great! Hanged out with Ellis And Meryl.
Had a gay-happy-go-lucky-extremely fun day!

We started off our day at my house. Talking as usual,
And then we went to Max Valu.

Bought starbucks and ate 'Chocolate indulgence. Had a picnic in the playground. Man, the last time we had a picnic, we almost vomit all the junk food. Ew,

After that, we acted gay and Syuk Sendiri, played and took lots of pictures.
It was real fun! :)

It was glad to see them again. Especially Ellis.

We bought a kite and named it "Cally"
Cuz' it's colourful.

OMG. so gay man.

We flied Cally and it went really high up.
We laughed and laughed.
I swear I almost tumbled down.

It was great spending time with the girls.
It's good to take my mind off a few things.

***

I really feel messed up. I hope you're happy now.
Fine. If you don't want it, then it's okay.
I am ready to face the truth.

2008-08-16T09:11:00.000-07:00

Met up with Bryan, Vicky and Saresh at Max Valu.
Pictures later.

It was nice to see them again, well, not one of them.
We had fun, yeah, but my stomach kept grumbling there.

Bryan was shuffling and he made lots of lame ass jokes, as usual, we laughed,
And played with his guitar.

Suraj didn't turned up in the end, And we went to the park, made videos. And hanged out.

It summed up not that bad.
Bt we still could have had more fun. ;D

2008-08-15T22:28:00.000-07:00

2008-08-15T07:19:00.000-07:00

Today's a new day,

I'm glad you're happy.

2008-08-14T19:31:00.000-07:00

There's a line before crossing over exaggeration.
but my heart tells me to be strong.
My body wants to break down.

I'm isolated, different.
I done everything and you tell me I don't deserve,
To be happy again?

I am not dead,
I will not break,
but I will sink, when time comes.

Why can't you see?
Why can't you just wake up?

2008-08-12T10:34:00.000-07:00

Why is it that it feels so different? That, you guys made me laugh so much, every 5 seconds, my eyes will be teared up, my stomach will ache, of too much laughter?

I was laughing my ass off, while Kavi did the bange-ra dance. while singing, and we followed her, the next second you find me collapsing into a huge laughter. OHMAGOD, the wonders of bangradance.

During moral exam, I kept on laughing at the question because it was so stupid.
And navjit caught me laughing, and then three of us ended up looking like a fool because we were the only ones who were laughing, LOUD.

The teacher was asking us to shut up. :/
And I was still giggling,

Today in school, it was not a very good day, my pencil box was lost, and I was wondering to myself why would anyone wanna steal it, it look's so old and rotten, I was so sad, :'(
byebye pencil box!
and I got so frustrated because there were so much drama's in school. It was seriously pissing off mannn.

Kavi didn't come to school today so I didn't have much fun, besides that, we were suppose to draw graffiti's, but I was spending my bloody time finding for my Pencil box.
:( :( I don't suspect anyone would steal it, though if it was a very poor boy/girl who did not have any money to buy a pencil box, then I wouldn't mind, Still, it's very wrong to steal someone's pencil box. :(

Navjit is jealous of me just because when we walk past some classes, the students will shout my name. Then navjit will tell me how ugly I am and how HOT she is.
And she wonders why nobody calls her name! :D Maybe cause I'm a much nicer girl compared to her evil rock-solid heart. :P

I got my results back, 84 for KH, and 95 for English.
Not bad, since I didn't study much.

2008-08-09T10:52:00.000-07:00

I dont knw what to say.

Do you really miss me?
Or are you just saying those words to make me confused again?

Did you finally realised I was there?
Or did you just said those words, if you really wan't me to rip apart, it's working.

Am I something to you?
Or do I own nothing in your life.

Do I play a role?
You said you wanted to talk, where's our conversation?

2008-08-09T09:13:00.000-07:00

The following content contains a lot of "bad grammar usage'
Please excuse our retarded-ness.

♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
raw!!!
Hey Sandy. ♥ says:
WOOOF!
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
burghhhh
Hey Sandy. ♥ says:
QUACK!
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
roof!
Hey Sandy. ♥ says:
PIKACHUUUU!
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
DoreaMonnnnn!!!
Hey Sandy. ♥ says:
CHICKEN!
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
I am snake
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
bite u
Hey Sandy. ♥ says:
i am a dragon
Hey Sandy. ♥ says:
blow fire at you!
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
erm...i am dragon slayer
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
slay u!!
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
i am honey , u is bee
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
so honeybee
Hey Sandy. ♥ says:
Lol. i am butter u are a fly.
Hey Sandy. ♥ says:
so butterfly
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
lol
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
i am ice u is cream
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
ice cream
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
icecream
Hey Sandy. ♥ says:
i am ikan u are bilis
Hey Sandy. ♥ says:
ikan bilis
Hey Sandy. ♥ says:
HAHA
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
lol
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
i am ayam u is goreng
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
ayamgoreng
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
eh
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
ikanbilis canot seperate de
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
no good de
♥[̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅]♥ ➵♥ㄨJASONㄨ♥→ says:
lol

And that's not the end of our convo. ;)

2008-08-08T22:41:00.000-07:00

1. the last person to tag you is?
Actually, I can't remember, but I would love to write abt Ellis.

2.what is your relationship with him/her?
Bestfriends, like, forever. :D

3.your 5 impressions of him/her?
pretty , straight-forward, smelly, crazy, sociable.

4.the most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
Giving me the best advices/comforting me.

5.the most memorable word he/she has say to you?
Smandy! :D

6.if he/she becomes your lover, you will...
Eww,

7.if he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
I swear I would cry until my eyes roll out.

8.if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on...
HELLOO?!?! Am I a lesbo?

9.if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be...
Because she smells like feeett! :D

10.the most desire thing to do for her now is?
spending quality time together.

11.the overall impressions of him/her now is?
everything nice/

12.how do you think people around you will feel about you?
thinking I’m one heck of an immature. Cause I go around flapping my hands and act like a retard.

13. the character you for yourself is?
Pessimistic. Although I think I’m artistic too. :D

14.on contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
Not being strong enough.

15.the most ideal person you wanna be is?
No one.

16.for the person who cares and likes you, say something about them
Thanks for being there for me, I don’t need anyone else but you people who brighten up my day,

2008-08-08T05:50:00.000-07:00

I really don't know what to say.
When bell rang, she turned away, and she said things about me.
To my own very best friend..

Obviously I felt threatened and the words were sharp. " Is she gone?" she said.
But I just kept it quiet. Why did she say it?

I know you don't care abt it anymore. I know you don't want to have anything to do with me anymore. But did you forget the past when we were so close? Why? why did you just let it go?

So this is how it goes
Well I, I would have never known
And if it ends today
Well, I'll still say that you shine brighter than anyone

Now I think we're taking this too far
Don't you know that it's not this hard?
Well it's not this hard
But if you take what's yours and I take mine
Must we go there?
Please not this time. No, not this time.

Well this is not your fault
But if I'm without you
Then I will feel so small
And if you have to go
Always know that you shine brighter than anyone does.

Why did you bring me back here again?

I tried, i swear.

2008-08-07T05:10:00.000-07:00

ohmagod. Vicky saved me from falling down. Phew*
It' was hillarious.

Navjit and I were holding our bags like lala's.
As in, turning our bags to the front. And holding our backs, pretending we're pregnant and mentally retarded.

And we made lots of gay noises. We also did some chicken act, again, and acted drunk,
OHMAGOD. And then when we turn back, Saresh was shaking his head and giving us his 'AIYOO. So lame man" look.

You knw what? I can do whatever I want.
It makes me laugh.
And having fun is what's most important. Like, totally. :D

2008-08-06T04:23:00.000-07:00

No, it's isn't really yr fault. When no one cares to talk about it,

9 in the afternoon says:
u reli dn wan me touch ur hands
I ♥ Sandy. says:
nope. never.
I ♥ Sandy. says:
D:
I ♥ Sandy. says:
it's like.. super natural.
9 in the afternoon says:
hhe
9 in the afternoon says:
i wan

Well. Marc gave me a cute little badge that he got from Genting, MTV ASIA AWARDS?
Haha.
Well. I was dancing around flopping my arms like a chicken. And yeah, maybe I am a weirdo. Everyone was staring at me, And bursting out laughing. I admit it was kinda embarrassing, but it's a good way to attract attention. HAHAHAHAHHA.

And well, we fooled around. Making weird remarks and laughing at ourselves. And being sarcastic.
OHMAGOD. I think we need to stop being so retarded lah.

I've learnt to be more alive.
And more gay. HAHA. :D

2008-08-05T08:03:00.000-07:00

vicky baby says:
sayang i got ur sweaty hand sickness la
I ♥ Sandy. says:
sweaty hands is not a disease. it's not spreadable.
I ♥ Sandy. says:
HAHAHA
vicky baby says:
haha
vicky baby says:
den why my mouse getting wetttttt

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH! Silly woman.

2008-08-04T09:14:00.000-07:00

Bryan teh tarik asked me to join his crew,
And I was like , 'HAH? What crew AH?"
And he was like, " Hip hop crew lah"

Ohmagosh, Malaysian accent really kicking in.

Well. other than that, My brain is really malfunctioning, nothing seems to go in.
And no one seems to care about studying Sejarah. HELLO?
Exam is tomorrow, my lovelies.

I feel like being VERY crude in front of you. You better watch your words unless you wanna be humiliated infront of everyone else.

Thank you so very much.

2008-08-02T23:26:00.000-07:00

went jogging at the park yesterday with Sanddra.
So much for jogging, we practically walked one big giant round.

6.30pm. Sorry bryan, I knew you'd be tired so I didn't invite you along.

Anyways. Today's plan was cancelled, I'm sticking to my bed and never getting out of it.
The weather seemed perfect for sleeping!
:( :( It's too bad exam is the day after today.

OHMAGOD. I just love Navjit! HAHAHAHHA.
She's so.. Different, from everyone else! She keeps on praising herself, And she's so hillarious,
sarcastic, Oh, I don't know what I'm gonna do without her for the past two months! Thank god I didn't miss out on anything.
Oh, navjit, you're so funny! And I can't stop laughing, I swear, my liver is gonna pop out one day just because of you! HAHAHAHAHA.

I know it’s silly for me to rethink about this, but maybe what I said just now, didn’t came out right. As in, I just remembered what happened, no, there were no ‘bitch fights’

Just plain old ‘Misunderstandings, that I shoved away for a long time, and here it is right in front of me, again.

Why don’t you just admit it and get it over with?

and I just don’t want you to walk away from me, again..

It’s okay if you’re leaving me, it’s just the pain in me that makes everything so hard.

I admit I made mistakes, but I know it would never be the same..

And I’m unaccepted. What else is there more to say?

2008-08-02T03:02:00.000-07:00

I miss my tablet. Daddy, please get me a new one? D:
The question mark looks so retarded. God.

2008-08-02T02:28:00.000-07:00

I'm suppose to go Bryan Teh Tarik's house, And He sang " You got me begging you for mercy"
On the phone. I was like "Aiyaaa, I'm the only girl there lahhhh,
Then he was like, "I'm a girl too."

HYAKS. He's a funny guy.
Very different from others.
And that's why I call him a girl.

Ohmagod. sorry lah bryan, I have to come damn late.
Sam and I went for a walk with my dogs.
And then Maxy got missing. So we were like. "OMG. SHIT"
So so so so, We went another round looking for her. She appeared at our front gate.

Nikesh msged me, saying he wants to postpone it, okayyy. Vicky didn't turn up either. So, next week lah. D:

SOAB!'

2008-08-01T06:27:00.000-07:00

Today was fun.
As usual.

our teacher didn't turn up, so we were screaming and playing and all.
some VERY VERY pitiful people were forced to do teacher's work.

I was SAVE thnx to my ugly handwriting.
bebeh,

ARGH. My idiotic scanner broke down, :(
Bloody wrong timing.

Patrick starfish asked me to go cc. HAHAHAHAHA.
Navjit didnt let me go,
And I went to Kavi's house.
Damn big weiyh,

2008-07-31T09:25:00.000-07:00

Shake Shake SHAKE it.

, Heartsick.
Hun,
You're so amazing in every way that even I won't attempt to elaborate.

!" Mr moorthy needs to get a vacation.

2008-07-30T09:13:00.000-07:00

Teacher's day performance.

Yes, I know, it 's on May.

Guess which is me? Wo hoooo.
That's me. The one which I circled with red. Striking a gay pose. Bwahah.

Dilemma.
I'm sick and tired of being so let down by my surroundings. And yes, ever since I've been hanging out with them monkays' I've been totally SYIOK SENDIRI weiyh.

I think we need to step back, and try to act normal for once. ;) I think it's the fact that I was too serious back then with them, sorry guys for what I was trying to pull last time.
Now I'm making randomly gay comments. Potato bread, bleh. :P

Anyways. I know what I'm doing. And I'm trying my best to settle everything. People, please just give me a chance to explain? I hope everything will be back in place. And I don't want it to end just 'Like that'

It's not easy for me, especially when there are trouble makers making it so tough for me.

Now, for my surgery, Yeah, I've been waiting for this day to come, But, for now, I will not be touching my bowling balls, Suprising enough, when I went back to bowling practises after 2 months of not attending it, I bowled four strikes in a row, one spare, and 2 more strikes.

this is NOT a joke. And I scratched my head every time I got a strike, cause my international bowling friends were trying twice as hard to get a strike. Bleh. :P

People keep on asking me how heavy is my ball, If you would like to know,
It's 13 pounds, try carrying it, I don't think you're strong enough. :P
The other one is 12.3 pounds,

I am officially putting away bowling until my hand surgery is done, bebeh.

And yes, I know about you and your *AHEM.
But, it's okay lah, You don't have to tell me, I already know.

And just so you know, I guess you don't take me as your close friend to tell me things like that, but I just care for you lah, kayh? I'm not involved with anything nowadays. So...

I just.. *sigh. too bad too bad.
No one tells me anything anymore, I guess I'm just another *some one else.

I wanna sit next to you, smile and laugh with you.
Oh, we're gonna be bestfriends till the end.
You skeleton in my closet. Don't forget to blurt out your secret.

Hun. this repeated dilemma, we're stuck. We're stuck. We're stuck,
Just let me be alone again.

2008-07-26T23:48:00.000-07:00

OHMAGOD. "What time is it ahhh? OMGWTH. 2 pm?!?!??!?!"
Saturday afternoon.
Sorry guys, suppose to do study group. :D

Damn gay wei, two days ago. HAHAHHAHAHA.

And actually Bryan invited me to go to some party at OU. But I told him I would feel left out.
Sorry.
So I stayed at home yesterday.

At six I went to desa parkcity with Sandraa,
And we jogged quite a distance. I remembered sandra mumbling "I haven't jogged so long since forever." We sat down and let the cold raindrops touch our skin.
Thanks hun for the eve.

Today was ellis party,
and this is her temporary present.

It was nice seeing her again. And she said she could tell how long we didn't met each other from the length of my hair.

I did not like the fact that she said it. And it was true.
Yes, time past so quickly.

I just felt so touch that people care about me. And that they actually take effort to know how am I, Thanks kelsey for calling me.
Thanks sandra for listening.
Thanks ellis for cheering me up babe.
Aftr all, old bestfriends come first like they always do.

Thanks hanushaa for the suprising phone calls.
Thanks heidy. Quah power weiyh. :)
Thanks suren, bestfriend.
Thanks marc, Misery partner.
Thanks navjit for being there for me. I owe it all to you. FOR the JAKUUNNNN TIMES!
Thanks vicky babeee.
Thanks kavi the monkey. For the cute comments.

Thank you for tolerating my cranky tone on the line sometimes.

2008-07-25T11:01:00.001-07:00

I wish I could make it back in time just to see us laugh one more time.

It seems like memories were burnt.
and new ones are created.

2008-07-24T10:20:00.000-07:00

Farewell Johanna.

We had a great camwhoring night.
But feelings stayed.
And yes, I'm just a little upset now.

I am considering to peel out my ears so I don't get to hear those mentally torturing words that people say.

Navjit and I were playing on the staircase today. There was this lift button' that is actually made up of marker pen. It was drawn on the walls and every floor we went up, there would be the same buttons. 'going up, going down.'

So Kavi and Nav would be rushing towards the buttons. "I wanna click first! I wanna click first!"
And sadly to admit, I would be running behind them, breaking into laughter and loud giggles,

We were so caught up in our own little world' that we forgotten about the rest of them who stared at us, or thinking we're somewhat crazy.

Kavi wrote a damn long sentence on Nav's table. USING A PEN.
So. Navjit was a little irritated cause' she want's her table to be perfectly clean.

Kavi used a liquid paper to cover the mess. And I laughed until my stomach hurts.
It's the little things they do that keeps me a little more alive everyday.

It's so funny how Navjit sings "My funny guy" whenever she see's my bag; Roxy.

And it's so funny that I never realised her existence for after so many years, Navjit is a donhorse' And kavi is my monkay.

It's funny how we can't get mad at each other, even if I'm damn irritated at her, and after a second, we'd both be laughing.

I love her so much mann! I tell you, she was the one who hold me tight when I was so hopeless. Same goes to my dear bestfriends out there,
Heidy, you too.
All of you rock my socks.

I've just noticed this month had been a rough time to go through.
And it isn't easy.

2008-07-23T11:48:00.000-07:00

And today is Ellis and Johanna's birthday.

My family and I went souled out. Teenage hot-spot.
The food tasted great.
The aura was 'loud.Fun.

And I am too lazy to upload the pictures. Maybe later? <

I don't know why.
But people really have nothing better to do nowadays.
Messing with people's social life?
Talking bad about other people?

Spreading rumors and you don't even have to tell me directly, EVERY single thing will come back to me, and when I find out, I'll slowly understand how things work.

Is it so interesting to ruin's someone's life? I mean, PLEASE, if you don't have a life, why must you go destroy others? We didn't even talk. How can you say I like to lie a lot? PLEASE.

You're so immature,
It's really not nice, you know.
I didn't even do anything to you.

IT IS NOT NICE,
YOU IDIOTIC BUTTHOLE.

GO TO HELL.

2008-07-20T09:21:00.001-07:00

Went to Genting highlands today. Pictures later. No time to upload.

And then we went to eat dinner with kor's family.

My parents keep on calling kor their 'Future-in-law'

Anyways. Yesterday, After science extra classes, I ran to the market, no company this time.

And I saw AMANDA khoo! OHMAGOD! OMGOMG!

Haha. both of us gave that 'Ohmagod,why does she look so familliar' look when we turned and look at each other's faces.

It was so embarrassing cause she was walking with a couple of friends, and I was rushing towards them like an angry chicken.

It was darn funny lah. I became damn dark since the sun was burning me.
And I went to eat with mummy and daddy. Saw my friends at the next table. I was like 'OMGWTH'

And then me and my sisters, plus Yvonne and Johanna (they are considered as my sisters too)
Went to yam cha.
Then we headed to The Curve, baby.

Darn exhausting.

2008-07-19T22:28:00.000-07:00

Lalaland is like an amusement park for us. (:

2008-07-18T05:00:00.000-07:00

Is ignoring the truth,
The best way to go through life?

Can I be excused? When the world seems like it's falling apart.

2008-07-16T04:34:00.001-07:00

Everyday. People will ask me. 'How are you?"
And I reply, with my lips faintly curve upwards "fine."

Well. What was I suppose to say? 'No. My day is horrible. It sucks."
People would think I'm hella pessimistic.
Crazy, in fact. And I don't wanna sound like a weirdo.

But that's not all true. Every single day of my life is good. But not great.
Because sometimes, the things I do, without realising it, might hurt a few people.
And I'm sorry about that.
Okay?

And honestly, I guess I miss those times when I laughed because of those people.

And every single thing they say hurts me. Not everything. But. A lot.
Even if they don't realise it. Or maybe they want me to listen anyways.
I don't know.

Trust is something that is VERY important in each relationship. And it forms one. Because of that, we have 'gangs'. or 'bestfriends'
Trust is the reason why I believe the other one.

But right now. Who am I suppose to believe?

2008-07-15T04:59:00.000-07:00

Redang VACATION.
We started our day by waking up at 4 in the morning! And I slept for one hour only. Then , we went to the air port.Me and My sisters were laughing at this sign. because the fella who wrote this is probably A BAD Speeeelllllleerrr.Then we took a ferry. When we reached the island. Everyone was freaking tired. And I got a call from Navjit. She called to tell me about some stuff. and then she asked what time I'm going to school. OPPS. I didnt tell anyone I was leaving so early. My friends was kinda pissed cuz I didnt tell them.So we went snorkeling. but Robin was lost in the forest. He actually wanted to give us a suprise that he could appear in front of our chalets before we reached there. but Unfortunately, he went to the wrong place which appears to be opposite of where we were staying.

My kor kor so bodoh. So he decided to take the jungle trekking way. Which was really dangerous. He was suppose to reach our place in 45 minutes, but there were no trace of him for 4 hours. My dad panicked. he called the search party.

It's been forever. My dad couldnt go snorkeling with us cause he was too worried, same goes to my sis.

When me, my mum, johanna and sam, finished snorkeling, we bathed, and went to the beach.
Scribbled lots of stuff on the sand. these are a few of them.

And who says I dont care anymore?

He finally appeared, the people managed to find him. THANK GOD. He said he was somewhere. OMG. I tell you man, the orang kampung who was suppose to know all the routes around the island was damn confused because they never heard of such place. Kor was really stuck in some place mann.

CAMWHORE PICTURES.
At night. We were playing cards. Laughing like hell. Playing the bombatsu' game or something like that. So the rules are, a person is suppose to make everyone laugh. But the rest is suppose to tahan from bursting out. The loser has to take a picture with a really retarded face.

It was 2am.everyone went to bed. The next day. We went for snorkelling again.

Took lots of cool underwater pics.
JohannaMe. Cool eh?

Daddy.Sam
Me and Johanna.

We swam for hours. Saw and touch lots of things. Jo was our tour guide. He's a damn cool guy.
In the evening. It was resting time. All of us as family, except kor and jie who was snorkeling, went to the beach. Sat down on the chairs that was already set up. Letting the sea breeze pull our hair back. Sitting back, and relax.
Everything seemed so calm. But Things started to get into my head. I was kinda moody on that trip because everything was falling apart for me. Tears started pouring. And I tried calling Ris,Wanting to let it out' but she claims she's too busy watching a movie. So I was like 'Okay.."
I was really upset man.

At night. We went to the beach. there was a beach party. We danced and jump up and down.
Damn crazy. I just wanted to let everything out. So I just threw my hands everywhere. Dancing but not following the rhythm. Laughing so hard. And having fun.

After that, we went to eat.
Walked on the beach.

Went for supper. and went back to our chalets.

The next morning, Waiting in 8am in the morning. OMG. SO damn tiring. But I kinda like this picture. So natural. :D
we took a ferry, a bus, and 'MAS' airlines.

They spelled our names wrong.

Do we really understand what does 'Trust' means?
If you trust someone, why do you feel like you have doubts on them.

It doesn't matter who they are. But it matters if what they say, sometimes, might not be true all the time.

I trust her. I really do. But rumors keep on spreading, saying things that aren't even true about her. And I will be the one defending her. And then people says I gossiped about her.
I admit, I do say things like, "why did she do this to me?
but I NEVER EVER EVER said things like ' She's so evil, she's an asshole."

Why must people make up rumors.
Why do I feel so apart from her? Why? why why?
Why is everything so different now.
That. I am so close to others.
But I'm so apart from those who matter most to me.

I miss her. I really do. but does it matter now?
That she looks like she doesnt really care anymore.
That she doesn't mind being apart.
That its okay, if I go mixing around with others, but not turning back to look at her once.

2008-07-10T09:02:00.000-07:00

Well, Lots of people I know already dropped out of school.
And I'm kinda sad about that, cause that means, I have less friends.
And how am I suppose to keep in touch with them anymore?
I really hate the E-disiplin. but it also brings a lot of PROS.
for example, prefects have the advantage.
but. Teachers have an advantage too, especially when you talk a lot in class.

Other than that, I was walking by the school's billboard, and sad to say, I came across the school's photography club. Their pictures are taken at the wrong angles, (only based on my opinion) For example, The photos were not candid. And it did not look natural.

But The idea was nice, though.

I'm so sorry to all those club members if this offends you.

I also don't believe in talents, as long as those people practised their skills. They should be able to perform well. NO ONE is born naturally GREAT at something unless it's karma.
:)

Well. That's just my opinion again.

I have been extremely crazy these past few days, because I hanged out too much with the bunch of crazy monkeys. We laugh at stupid things, talk about stupid things. And then they kept on hitting my ASS. it's not funny okay? So painful laaaaah.

And they were so supportive, behind my back. and I WONT FORGET YOU GUYS. DUH.

I am so happy. :)
I have both bunch of friends. and all of them has been really nice to me.
I don't need anything more.

Btw. i dont even know why I APOLOGISED To you. It's your fault. It's your fault. It was never my fault. I didnt do anything. You were probably just trying to create a utterly stupid situation to get my friends turn against me.

YOU SEE, this is why You never had true friends. You backstabbed people, claiming you were right.

I never do anything. So shut the hell up, stop trying to get attention. Stop trying to take my friends away. I really shouldn't have confronted you.

You told ris you were angry at me, And then when I asked you, you said no. And then I asked you why you were mad, you said, "I don't even know why I'm talking to you anymore."

And YOU were the one pulling her away. NOT TRUE? LOOK at yourself in the mirror.

Calling me bad words and all. So unlike you. So different from the old you. I really shouldn't have apologised FOR NOTHING.

The wonder my friends disliked you. i didnt see your 'True colours' in the first place. STOP TRYING TO ASK EVERYONE 'WHAT DID SANDY SAY'
It's so annoying. everyone comes and tells me that you're asking about me.

Pffsh. WEIRDO.
Anyways. I dont care anymore lah. Whatever you did, just leave me alone. Stop trying to ruin my mood. I'm happy now. You can't get in the way anymore.

:)

2008-07-09T05:21:00.000-07:00

I really didn't realize I was laughing so much until today.

It's all over now, she says. I'm so glad we were strong enough.

Now I can finally be happy again.
well, Happier.

thanks everyone, you've been a great help.

But I only appreciated some, others were not much but just trying to make things worst.

I don't really care about anything else anymore. I feel so :D

2008-07-08T08:27:00.001-07:00

The song that everyone's been singing.
The song thats been running through the radio over 10 times a day.
The song that my friends are so crazy about.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D04FObz9TWA

Why is everything clashing on Sunday? On saturday?
There's extra science classes on saturday. VERY IMPORTANT.
There's cheer on sunday and saturday.
I'm suppose to meet up with my friends.
and I'm going to Pulau redang.
So all plans cancelled.
And there goes Cheer 2008.

2008-07-07T08:28:00.000-07:00

It's cool to have my friends to have my back. Those people who I never expected stood up for me, and they helped me go through this. It's just now, I don't know what to say lah. All I want back is the past. And I won't stop complaining about this until everything goes back to normal.
Well. I am totally fat right now. I went out the whole day. Tuition. School. Bowling. Mamak. I have a misery partner. Marcus. He's a really great guy. But he seems to have the same problem as I am going through, Still, he has really GREAT friends. WOW. Just great lah.

But don't worry lah. We are both the same. It's too bad lah. I guess this is something we have to go through one day.

• [c=#398AC6][b]Heidy[/b][/c] • this is real, I'm afraid; but this time there's no hiding • says:
ehhhe,. my display picture look like my dad, LOL

Sandy. says:
LOL. so bad

Sandy. says:
dont tell him that, after he get angry.

• [c=#398AC6][b]Heidy[/b][/c] • this is real, I'm afraid; but this time there's no hiding • says:
hahahahha

• [c=#398AC6][b]Heidy[/b][/c] • this is real, I'm afraid; but this time there's no hiding • says:
he was the one tht said

• [c=#398AC6][b]Heidy[/b][/c] • this is real, I'm afraid; but this time there's no hiding • says:
" eh tht look like me ah!"

[c=#398AC6][b]Heidy[/b][/c] • this is real, I'm afraid; but this time there's no hiding • says:
since when i wore a dress?

• [c=#398AC6][b]Heidy[/b][/c] • this is real, I'm afraid; but this time there's no hiding • says:
HAHAHA'

HAHA. My retarded cuzzie.

Talisa, Me (damn gay face mann) Andrea, Heidy and Kimberley, And our Sleepover. (I didn't really get to sleep.)

2008-07-06T07:34:00.000-07:00

OHMAGOSHHHfghhhrgh.

I've been feeling so WEIRD nowadays. I'm doing things spontaneously. But is that good, or bad? I found myself, less clingy towards my gang, and I no longer need them to be with me everywhere I go. Because of this incident, I've been making lots of new friends. Met lots of different people, which I didn't acknowledge them before I became really good friends with them.

I feel like doing a cartwheel out of no where. And the other part of me feels like dying on my bed.
So random. :D

Yesterday was awesome. Went to eat dimsum at a real expensive restaurant. But it taste ordinary. And plus, I think the one near my house is two times better than that. \
And I'm trying not to be a critic.

Later that, we went to Petaling j, street. It was really, freaking hot, I tell you.
And then, the fella' who wanted to sell us the clothes tried to 'kon' (which means 'CHEAT') us cause he saw Johanna. So my mum was like. "EH, we're malaysians LAH."

And he was like "Oh, I'm so sorry, Miss, I thought you were from overseas. Uh. I give you the malaysian price, okey?"
And from RM40. We bargained until RM15.

What a rip off, dude.

So Heidy and I were really desperate to meet each other. So I was begging my mum to let me go to heidy's ball. It's a christian ball. And she has a date. :)

And I just grabbed a dress from my sister's cupboard and wore that to the ball. (Yes, I wore a dress) They said I look good in that dress. :)
I'm sorry.. I'm going to stop being so perasan now.

Heidy made a mask for me, since the theme was 'Masquerade blabla."

And I made new friends, 'Andrea, and Talisa. Oh, and heidy's other cousin, Kimberly.
they are really nice. And I slept over Heidy's house yesterday. After the whole thing, ALL of us were really tired. OUR legs hurt. 5 hours wearing high heels.

After that, we started to bake. So everyone changed into comfy clothes. and got ready the ingredients.

The kitchen was a big mess. We had to clean the floor. But I didn't really help much. All I did was break eggs and pour the melted chocolate to the cupcakes.

We did lots of retarded stuff like throwing a teddy bear to the fan?' HAHA. and laughing at heidy's dad's hair. So retarded lah. Taking silly pictures. Making lame jokes. Laughing at our own stupidity.
And talking.

Lots. LOTS of talking.

My cellphone died halfway when Navjit called me. So, my apologies. :(
Other than that, the other thing I was satisfied about was that I was able to see dear Heidy again. :) She cooked for us spaghetti in 1 am. And I think I slept around 5, talking.

So, then, I woke up, and I couldnt go back to sleep around 1o. I went down, took a comic book, a magazine, and started reading. The rest of them were upstairs sleeping like a baby.

Then my sis came, And I rushed to get the stuff, and we went to Sunway lagoon. After that, around 6pm, we went to sunway piramid, ate, walked, and came back around 10.

It was really hectic lah. so many things to do. And I forgot to do my homework.

2008-07-04T20:29:00.000-07:00

So my dad sold his pajero for a INOVA, baby. A black Inova.
And we bought it yesterday.
And He was like " HEY! LETS GO To Max Valu"
Me: Huh? For what?
Daddy: To buy eggs!
Me: What?.. And.. Why should I go?
Jie: Come laahh, Didi, daddy wants to show off his car.
*Grumbles.

I missed cheer practise, Aaron is gonna be mad at me. :( Uh-oh.

2008-07-02T10:08:00.000-07:00

To the people who care for me.
I am very touched. And I am so happy more of you guys are going to visit me in the hospital after surgery. I can't believe all of you guys even cared about me.

It's not a big surgery.

And I can't go cheer 2008. Cause I'm going pulau redang. GRGHH. I'm so pissed. But my parents said they booked this date since January. Pffsh. No one told me. :(

today I'm suppose to go to school at 7 am. But I woke up late, and I knew they could handle things without me, besides, there was no point for me to go.

Yesterday I watched my host sis, jie, kor, and marg baking some german cake, and I was there to snap pictures and disturb them.
Jie brought back big apple' donuts for me, And cookies and cream' ice cream from new zealand' natural.

Kor baked a cake for me and my family. Yum. :)

During chinese class, marc bought big apple donuts' again. And Sam and I brought the german cakes to class, so we were eating in the tuition. HAHA. Xie' lao shi was so damn cute mann.

After that, jie, sam, joh , kor, and I went to old town.
Non-stop eating weiiyyhh.

2008-07-02T09:40:00.000-07:00

On The Edge of the breaking point.

Is it stupid to waste tears over someone who means so much to you? Not in a 'Love' or 'crush' kind of way. but in a way where, you thought she means the world to you. But you're losing her. Both of you know it. But there's nothing we can do about it.

Is it stupid to just watch the whole scenario, just looking at her neglecting you, wanting to talk to her so much. That if you even quiver one SINGLE word, your eyes will start to water.

Is it stupid to try so hard to gain back our once, UNBREAKABLE, friendship which were meant to last till our limits. Or is it normal, for a individual to act this way?

Everyone's been saying, " Isn't it obvious?" "they're leaving you." "she's taking your place." "they don't need you anymore."

People, WHO ARE NOT EVEN close to me, calls me and advices me. DOOD, how the heck do you know about MY problems? Why do they knows what's happening between me and my personal life?

Because I need answers. I think I'm REALLY stupid. I'm pathetic. And yet, I'm still this way.

Everyone has a problem with me. Why? How the hell should I know. I didn't even do anything, and they're finding fault in me. Forcing me to do things like coupling with a guy I don't even have any feelings with. DOOD? I have a life, okay?

People are making rumors about me. I confronted them. Duh, it's not true, why should I go Ruin your life when you never do anything to me?
What the hell is your problem? Stop trying to prove you were the immature person who I thought you were from the day I met you.

No, I'm not like the other girls who just fall in love with anyone. I find them utterly stupid. Ridiculous. Retarded? Haha. I am totally different which sets me aside to look at things in a different perspective.

I want my life back, now I don't know who to trust anymore. Nobody trusts me anymore. People tells me 'They're just using you." "Don't hang out with them, they just like you for your popularity." What the hell does that mean? POPULARITY? USING? HELLOOOO? Stupid much?

who am I suppose to believe? What am I suppose to do? I'm losing my friends. I'm losing the people I trust.

They might have lost trust in me already.
What can I do?
And I am standing here, watching them walking away.

2008-06-29T09:54:00.000-07:00

German dish. 'Das iz good!"
Pagodas.
Mommy at the beach, :) It was really dark at that time.

Look! It's rissara. :)
Johanna.

Bought some peanuts to feed the hungry monkeys. Daddy gave them our nice, expensive crackers. :( I AM SO ANGRY. We gave them bananas too.

Angry monkey? :(Mommy and daddy trying to walk in a line. All of us tried cause daddy provoked us. He said ' I bet all of you can't walk in a straight line' Well, I proved HIM wrong.

I'm the photographer. :D I bought this for My dear Heidy. :) Front Back.

Yeah, so I've not been blogging often. Stop bugging me, people. It's bad enough I suck at balancing my time.

So, turns out the bowling lanes broke down and we have to cancel our practises on Friday and Sunday. Which is totally ridiculous mann. We seriously have to sue our 'Lane repairer'.

Friday - Missed school. Went to penang. It's suppose to be a VACATION. But it turns out like 'Three days of not-so-relaxing' especially the freaking hot sun that burns my skin.

Yeah. Learnt a few GERMAN words. 'Erin Nerong' Means Memories.
'Vas is Das' apparently means 'What is that?'
Das iz gud!' Means that is good.
'Ich liebe Dich' Means I love you. :)
'Gutentag' means.. Hello? haha.
'Nein' Means no.

Oh oh. We went to the Botanic Garden.

Eat in western restaurants. Italian restaurants. German restaurants. to Hawker stalls near the roadsides.

Fooled around. Like monkeys.

Lazy to upload pictures. Blah.

2008-06-25T10:00:00.000-07:00

My host sister came down yesterday.

Johanna. But it's pronouns as Yo-hanna. And no Ris, it's not Yolanda. She's so sweet. She's from Germany.
But the communication is a little hard. Okay, VERY HARD. But I will try to communicate more. She's a darling.

Today for art class, we had to draw comic strips. Brendy and Joey drew emo figurenes. It's extremely cute. But we had to finish it less than 45 minutes. We came in class late and so, I rushed to draw this.

I did not have any ideas, and I had to think directly on spot.

So, Brendy suggested drawing the shooting hearts' idea.

And I thought, since it will be a good way to express my feelings. I drew my friends. Me, and it has double meaning.

Other than that, on PJ period, we had to do lots of sit ups, and pumping. As usual, I did the most. BWAHAHAHA. Sorry, I just felt like I never praised myself for days.

Well, Has anyone seen the wall at blok C? WOW. It's freaking beautiful. Plus, I had to give them credits cause it was really impressive.

I wanted my gang and I to go for the 'My school rocks' thingy, But it seems like we ran out of time, plus, I have been really busy over the past months. Dammnnn.

I have been Missing my bowling lessons. And my friends are angry at me. I am so sorry. :(

2008-06-23T08:41:00.000-07:00

Surgery.

So why does everyone thinks I'm crazy to 'WANT TO GO FOR SURGERY SO MUCH?' Well. It's actually one of my 'things to do' on my list that I've been so eager to cross out.

It's just. It hurts less if I get over with it now. Then living with it forever.

Daddy's bday.

We got a whole secret recipe 'MUDCAKE'

Delish. Delightful.

2008-06-21T21:30:00.000-07:00

My darling friends. And my day to Jusco.

Damn funny picture

Caught a movie. Get smart' COOL WEIYHH. Then we went to yam cha. I bought the bread from 'papa roti' REALLY GOOD.

And I saw lots of kbs. and malurians walking everywhere.

Pretty eh? :) I dropped my strawberry on the table. :( So I didn't eat it.

Requested. From Vicky.

It's freaking delicious. The restaurant is next to KFC. But i forgot what it's called. Something like.. "tea and... ? ' Or ' food and drinks'? or something like that. :/

Saturday.

Went to the club with Sam. Met terry. Went to the study room. And guess what? When I was playing my laptop the whole table broke down. So we were damn scared. What if they think we were the one who did it?

So we tried fixing it. Hahha. Pathetic.

Everytime we finish putting everything into place. It breaks down. So. In the end, my dad called the carpenter to do it. Thank god we dont have to pay for the table. hahaha.

So gay lah you, Terry. :)

2008-06-19T19:10:00.000-07:00

Just came back from olahraga. Jogged for 10 laps. Damn dark now.

It sucks to be the only girl there, except Brenda. But she's too cool to hang out with me. Bwahahaha.

Tomorrow there's a carnival in KB. And there's a shopping trip with kai ni, vanessa, sharlyn. Etc. So which one should I pick? :/

Well. I feel much better now. Eventhough a part of me still wants to stay with my Navjit. Shahsfiny. Vicky. Sangitaa. Darshaini. Amanda. Kavisha. I love them all. Thanks for helping me so much to regain my confidence. Thanks for having my back. I will never leave you guys. I am so
Greatful to have ALL of you. :)

You guys really supported me. And YOU definetely cheered me up when I cried. It was so scary when I felt like those people were leaving me. But now, I know the truth.

My sweaty hand partner just had her hand surgery. I am so sorry I didn't visit.I wanted to visit you on thursday, but you'll be checking out then. I Love you. Ellis.

And yeah. I'm not afraid to admit it. I have sweaty hands too. I was born with this. But I'm gonna do an operation. I asked my close friends ' Will you come visit me?' They Said. 'OHMAGOD. What kind of stupid question is that? Obviously we'll come and visit lah, bodoh. No matter what. And we'll all come in a gang" Whereas. My bffs said. " It depends lah... If it's schooling day have to see first. "

I'm not comparing... but it's kinda funny how they respond to the question. :)

Kinda sad to be born this way. It brings down 70% of my self esteem. And It's so embarrassing last time, where I had to hide it from my parents. Can you believe it? I had to try so many tactics to avoid getting water on my book. It sucks. But it's okay. Cause My parents supported me in doing this surgery. No more turning back. :) Like what Ellis said, I can finally be normal.

I can't wait.
This is actually, A drawing of someone. She's not riding a bicycle, Ellis. LOL! Sandraaaa. So freaking funny. :P

Sorry Joey. I hope you're not angry with me. I have plenty of reasons why I thought you didn't feel comfortable with me. Sorry. Everything is just my fault. EVERYTHING. Please love me back. :( I always wanted to talk to you about it. But you're always busy. and there's always people around you.

I wish it wasn't like this.

I love you lah, sayang.

Went through my old art.

AFTER

BEFORE

2008-06-17T09:06:00.000-07:00

I guess. maybe. I was wrong? but yet.

I used to be really extremely close to this girl. We even cry once, which was really unbelievable since YOU NEVER CRIED in front of anyone before. And now you treat me like trash.

You seriously. Neglected me. When I talk to you, all you do is just reply me by one word. Or just nod. It's so sick. I mean. I tried so hard to talk to you. For you to open up to me. Just because I was gone for a month. Does it mean that you are allowed to treat me this way?
Does this mean that, you never appreciated our friendship?

It hurts. God. It hurts. Plus. you're not the only one who's doing this to me.
Everyone ask me to move on, how can I? As if its so easy. Especially if she means a lot to me. I'm going through a hard time. Everyone misunderstands me. everyone.

And yet. I have to go crawling to my other friends. Feeling so pathetic. Yet, my other friends accepted me. I didn't want to sit with you guys who I claimed 'bestfriends' because those other people appreciated me.

Okay. I'll reverse everything. You guys. YOU GUYS. you guys are something that means so much to me. But its so different now. She took my place. It's okay. Just that. I am so miserable sitting here. God, I feel so pathetic. SO FREAKING CHILDISH. AND SO FREAKING PATHETIC. Like a 12 year old kid who cries for attention.

Am I just another person who walks in and out of your life?

2008-06-15T22:37:00.000-07:00

SAMMMMYY SAMMY!
Happy bday sam. :)

You left the stupid alarm ringing. And I'm very irritated at you. >:(
I missed school today. Suppose to go lunch with sis. but I have no idea why we're still at home.

I didn't buy Sam anything yet. :( :( wanted to go get her some comics or something. . I need some idea's badddd!

Happy father's day daddy.

We went out for lunch and dinner. With robin kor. He's so lame. lameh. lol. I mean, he owes me a chicken, :)
We ate at mid valley, uhh. Green gardens? or something like that. Then we went to a Thai restaurant. there's a gay guy, but he is not as cute as the other gay guy.

Oh, and One more thing. Doesn't anyone realize that any guys can get girls by just sweet talking? Thank god I'm not that kind of person. :)