Wednesday, July 2, 2008 @9:40 AM
On The Edge of the breaking point.
Is it stupid to waste tears over someone who means so much to you? Not in a 'Love' or 'crush' kind of way. but in a way where, you thought she means the world to you. But you're losing her. Both of you know it. But there's nothing we can do about it.
Is it stupid to just watch the whole scenario, just looking at her neglecting you, wanting to talk to her so much. That if you even quiver one SINGLE word, your eyes will start to water.
Is it stupid to try so hard to gain back our once, UNBREAKABLE, friendship which were meant to last till our limits. Or is it normal, for a individual to act this way?
Everyone's been saying, " Isn't it obvious?" "they're leaving you." "she's taking your place." "they don't need you anymore."
People, WHO ARE NOT EVEN close to me, calls me and advices me. DOOD, how the heck do you know about MY problems? Why do they knows what's happening between me and my personal life?
Because I need answers. I think I'm REALLY stupid. I'm pathetic. And yet, I'm still this way.
Everyone has a problem with me. Why? How the hell should I know. I didn't even do anything, and they're finding fault in me. Forcing me to do things like coupling with a guy I don't even have any feelings with. DOOD? I have a life, okay?
People are making rumors about me. I confronted them. Duh, it's not true, why should I go Ruin your life when you never do anything to me?
What the hell is your problem? Stop trying to prove you were the immature person who I thought you were from the day I met you.
No, I'm not like the other girls who just fall in love with anyone. I find them utterly stupid. Ridiculous. Retarded? Haha. I am totally different which sets me aside to look at things in a different perspective.
I want my life back, now I don't know who to trust anymore. Nobody trusts me anymore. People tells me 'They're just using you." "Don't hang out with them, they just like you for your popularity." What the hell does that mean? POPULARITY? USING? HELLOOOO? Stupid much?
who am I suppose to believe? What am I suppose to do? I'm losing my friends. I'm losing the people I trust.
They might have lost trust in me already.
What can I do?
And I am standing here, watching them walking away.
